Marliana
up&down
Saturday, February 15, 2014
talking to my inner soul, why is everything going wrong?
crying to make me feel good, is the best that i could do.
my heart is getting very very sore
holding my tears, able to speak up to who?
have not been updating my blog. zzzzz
yesterday i went for my cca, outdoor adventure club. all the newbies, were quite fun! and the activities were fun too! hahaha idk how to describe because it was totally funnnn. as a senior, it feels different. i am able to open up more to the rest of the member. haha, how funny. i still remember how quiet and awkward it is to attend the trainings. like, it's fun being with them, yet awkward to be talking with them. but wtv it is, OAC is a family :)
exam is less than 4 weeks times. i must study soon!!! but yet, i'm having plans with zainul after this to hang out. hahaha! procrastinating at the best
sigh. there's so many things and plans i have in the back of my head, plus problems i've been facing.
been crying alot, and crying makes me feel good after that. but bad thing is, i'm having eyebags/dark circles T.T i don't usually cry in front of people. i don't want them to see that i'm having problems/hurt/getting affected with all this emotional kind of stuff. maybe in twitter i'm soooo emo and soooo sad and all. but in reality, i don't show it all that i'm sad about the things that i think of. i tried to make every thing funny and laugh at it, hah! sounds crazy, but it also feel good to laugh out loud! though. it's the only thing that can make me put all the saddest thing in my life away.
but it doesn't stop me for smiling and being happy, of being able to find happiness. it's like showing people that you're strong and capable to hold on to life.
ps. idk if everything that i say out makes sense, because sometimes idk what the hell i'm talking about.
i want to share this picture above. it kinda look like me, Aqilah, TFL, Amirah and Jannah! HAHAHA
ok, let's start from the left, which the two left ones either look like Jannah or TFL. then the blonde one behind, looks like Aqilah. the brown skin, is me, obviously. and the right bottom, Amirah.
HAHAHAHAHA! omg i cannot.... XD
HAHAHAHAHA! omg i cannot.... XD
north to west
Saturday, February 08, 2014
really really had a great day! eventhough I failed my Final Theory but things lighten after that.
i want to share about the malls we visited today at JEM and Westgate. We don't have to worry about going to town area to get expensive stuffs. these two malls had loads of branded shops at those mall, like H&M Marks & Spencer, Factorie, Victoria Secret, Sephora and many more other shops! i could say, it's exactly like town area but it's in a mall. gosh, i wouldn't mind going there again, once i got my pay! it's really a good place to shop! felt like i was in a paradise~
X-country//
Saturday, February 08, 2014
this was on thursday, 6 february 2014.
we had our x-country at bedok reservoir and i got 71th position. but it was a great achievement for me because i didn't stop halfway and keep on running all the way throughout the 3km and i'm proud of myself! after that, we had lunch at simpang bedok and we ate like alot! omg, can you imagine, after u run and all, u eat. you lose, and then gain. but great food, with great company :)
these times are hard, they will pass
Wednesday, February 05, 2014
ya Allah, you're my only hope. i'm ready with whatever fate lies ahead of me.
aku redha dgn ketentuanmu. aku tahu, aku telah banyak berdosa. aku minta ampun dan maaf atas segala dosa-dosaku dan keluargaku. seandainya inilah cobaan yg harus aku lalui, aku terima seadanya. amin.
*relax
Monday, February 03, 2014
things were tensed and kinda fucked up.... my parents. sighh.
i couldn't explain much, but at that point of time, i was strong. was strong to hold on my tears and sadness towards the arguments. i'm proud of myself, though, after a countless time going through the same shit :)
for the past few days, things wasn't going right. but i know, and i believe, that Allah SWT is testing.
“A life without challenge, a life without hardship, a life without purpose, seems pale and pointless. With challenge come perseverance and gumption. With hardship come resilience and resolve. With purpose come strength and understanding.”
― Terry Fallis, The High Road
work
Thursday, January 30, 2014
so today marks the day that I started working at Cotton On Somerset@313. i was kind of nervous at first, but i tried to overcome them by not thinking too much and predict what i will be doing. i was expecting that the people there will be friendly, but nah... only a few was quite friendly and i even don't care, and just do my work. but throughout the four hours, i was folding and folding, hanging and hanging all the way, without realizing about the time. and oh! i also self-declared that there's no school this morning... haha! super lazy to go to school! :p yay to public holiday and the weekends already~
friends vs friend
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
geng ladyboys. the smile on each faces, shows how happy we were at that point of time. we were all so happy, back then. i could remember knowing each and everyone of the boys and girls. they were actually a bunch of great and funny people. we created good memories, i do love them.
i miss us.....
but life has to go on. :)
Labels: #cried #tears #friendship #gengladyboys #love #broken
50/50
Monday, January 27, 2014
so, me farhan zulfikah and illah went for a jog/run+some cardio's. haha, wasn't the serious cardio but we just did it for one or two sets and did what we know, just for fun only :) afterall, i can feel the ache from the workout sesh.... omg i'm literally feeling the ache all over my body! it's either it's been soooo long i've not been exercising or the amount of efforts i put into the workout.
we then hangout for a few hours, catching things up and talking about our upcoming plans~ really miss them soooo much! especially if the group is the full clique :( oh my, i miss the old times. sigh but here are some pictures from yesterday :)
na-ah idfc how i look, i love my putas :*
okay, about today. i'm soooo cranky and annoyed by annoying people...... oh god! only god knows why. will continue blogging, cause i'm super tired and need my sleep... zzzzz
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Saturday, January 25, 2014
cold weather ☁☂☀
Friday, January 24, 2014
TGIF ✌
feels good to know that the weekends has started weeeeee ~ had a splendid friday with Aqilah after school. we went to Changi City Point and had a stroll down, passing by expo halls. that's the only way to go CCP actually! hahahah but really had a great talk with Aqilah though. :) resource from Google:
- "Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival."
- "I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions or unnecessary conversations. If we don't vibrate on the same frequency there's just no reason for us to waste our time. Id rather have no one and wait for substance than to not feel someone and fake the funk."
on the other hand, there were a lot of good memories created with people who entered my life before and now. some, may have a bit of misunderstandings and then, be in good terms. some, may forever have an issue. but let's bring our journey to the good ones. people come and go but, the memories stays in you. reminiscing them will make you realize how great you and them were and how great the friendship was built. keep it as a memory in your soul. put aside those people who may lead you to a bad path, who brings you down and, who doesn't accept you for who you are. find a friend that is sincere, a friend that is willing to open up with you and a friend that won't hurt you with their actions/words. tell them, if they don't like you, then fucking leave. because there are still millions of soul out there.
the end
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